I’m so full of emotions. Nothing cohesive I am penning tonight.
Just thoughts. Life is so full of “stuff” right now. Good stuff, great stuff,
better stuff and a little not-so-good stuff. I am six months away from a dream
I’ve wanted for a very long time. Being a college graduate. Yet, today I am not
as excited as I think I should be. There are exams, exams, statistics, exam…and
yeah, one more full semester. Then it all ends. But until then, I must go
through the tough process, the daily in and outs of doing the work.
I’m so close to the end
but that doesn’t stop me from wanting to cry
when I’m looking at regressions, and trying to manually calculate t- tests.
Today was just one of those days. Wednesdays are SO hard for me. I’m in school
the same amount of hours during the day, one would work a full time job. Then
once I get home there’s really no rest, I have single mom duties. That looks
entirely different than someone who can drop the ‘single’ off the mom title.
After days and days of studying for my statistics exam, and passing it—up to
bat is my counseling exam I have tomorrow and a Research methods exam on
Monday. While I try and figure out how to study for those, I must try and
figure how exactly I scheduled my son’s dentist appointment the exact same day
as mine, and how exactly I will manage to make those both happen. If I hadn’t
rescheduled both our appointments already a million times, I’d consider
rescheduling. Rescheduling just isn’t an option. So in my
brain while I force counseling theories
inside, along with 2x2 factorial designs and when to use them, I gotta find
some room to crunch numbers to make sure I can go to my dentist appointment,
while making sure my son doesn’t miss his orthodontist appointment. Sigh. I’m
tired.
Oh, but then there is work. Yes,
I must have a job too. Granted I feel I’m working solely for the wardrobe given
the hours, or lack thereof I get..I’m employed.
As the love of my life would say, I’m Mrs. Grumpy Bear
tonight. Fear not, I also have some happy feelings within I am trying to
process. The details surrounding those are not something I want to discuss…YET….but
the happiness consist of so many twists and turn, it’s amazing. On the daily, I
think of this new aspect of life I am entering and I am thrilled. There has
been this missing thing for a long time from my life and I had made peace to
always not have it. God said otherwise. In one day, everything I thought
was..changed. For the best. For the
BEST. The end of the year and next year will be filled with lots of exciting
things.
Dude, I read over this blog post and the student in me thinks I likes me some
commas! So if you’re reading this and you’re an English major…you can suck
it!!! (teasing)
So, how about them apples?!
